It’s 3:14am Aug 30, 2026. The witching hour hasn’t gotten any better. I think of your beautiful coil curls that I was always fascinated with and wanted to pull down to see the length each time I would see you…from your toddler years to the last time I saw you at Disneyland (Gracieland forever). I miss your sweet gentle smile and your soft hands. You were kind, dainty in ways, and such a caring and giving soul.
Each day that has gone by from the day of the horror and shock that shook our entire lives, has not gotten easier. We all miss you and feel your absence heavily. The only peace there is, is the feeling of peace that comes from thinking of where you are now, a place I know we call home.
In a place of calm, nature, serenity and love.
Tonight’s last words of the evening were a quote on Yogi tea. It said “Be guided. Listen to the whispers of the universe.”
Fact is I am always trying to listen, hear and feel. It’s not easy with the noise. I give all day and hope it’s enough for the soul redemption, but I’m reminded that pain still exists. The burn. The heat. Then I rely on the pain to show me the balance. Of life. Of living. The truth is the universe lives on always. Regardless of the catastrophic and sad events and regardless of the beautiful amazing constellations and serendipitous events. It’s one insanely beautiful yin and yang that exists and coexists together. I know we will meet again and your memory lives on. The pain is only there in this lifetime only to show us that life is bigger than us. I have faith and believe that everything in our path shows us the way to some peace. Someday.
Until then, I see you my Grace. With the infinite tree of life, playing with the flowers and looking up at the clouds like you are in your castle dream house. I love you more than words can express and you will always hold a very special place in my heart. Keep visiting us and speak to us in the ways that you can. Don’t ever be shy to help guide us to anything you need, our sweet angel. I promise to always listen.
Sleep tight and sweet dreams my little love bug. 🐞